Dreamin'

***WARNING****
This poem in no way reflects me, or anyone I know. It is just an untold story. Enjoy.


I’ve been going through a lot these past couple months
I don’t know where I am no more
I think I’m still in my bed
& I’m just dreamin

If possible I wanna relive my life from start/Tryna stay so bright I still end the dark/don’t know if I can play while I live in the park/I might as well stay on the park bench then live from the start/I’m tryna start over and do the right thing/But I don’t even know how to find me a queen/When I’m no longer a king/I’ve done too many things/too many wrongs/too many blessing I deceive &/chose not to receive/now I’m looking at other people like can they perceive/all the pain I’ve been through/all the strife/I’m tryna turn all my wrongs to right/but I hope I’m just dreamin’

To live or not to live/now I’m the judge and jury/I’m know I’m not Him/and I wasn’t born purely/But damn/At least I was born/and I’m sorry/But we were both so torn and unwarned/Backed into a corner of no return/I guess this is just another life lesson learned/I’m so scared now that m soul may burn/knowing that a gave up God’s gift when it was my turn/This is so hard to put into words/cause in March I know your voice won’t get to be heard/My pops said man-up/cause what’s done is done/but I know he ain’t too proud of his son/ lucky I’m just dreamin’

I done sold my soul for 400 pieces of gold/I know I should feel the heat/but rather I feel so cold/I feel so cruel/this wasn’t a part of lifes rule/God knew this would happen/So why was it me that he choose/& I don’t even understand my life/Tryna life through the pain/Tryna fight the strife/I pray to skies like “Father let me in”/Just have a heart and forgive all my sins/I’m so sorry for what I did/I would love it so much to hear the breath of my kid/& this is something that I’ll never forget/& as for myself/I’ll never forgive/ MAN I’M GLAD I’M JUST DREAMING